Getting Started...

So I just started this whole blogging thing, still having a little trouble working out the kinks, but it's coming along.

Some would say I bottle up my feelings and never let them out until the bottle's too full and then I explode on the wrong person or just burst out into a crying spell for no reason; usually it's the exploding on the wrong person and not the crying spells that happens. So I figured I would just write things down and let it all come out this way.

I have a beautiful baby boy named Cristian Alexander and he is most definitely the love of my life. He will be 2 years old in April. He is growing up so fast and has his own little personality; very energetic and always has a smile on his face. Of course looks just like his daddy; he used to look like me but the older he gets the more and more he looks like John and acts just like him, it's crazy!!! John and I are together and things are great. He's great with Cristian. Cristian absolutely adores him. We've talked about getting married but I think we've both decided it will be best to wait, plus I just don't think either one us is quite ready for something that big, so right now we're just enjoying being together and raising Cristian together!!!

So 2008 was pretty much a bad year for me, actually one of the worst. At the end of February, my biological dad, who lived in Texas, past away. He was in a motorcycle accident with 3 other people and he was the only one who died. I met and spent time with him a total of 3 times in my entire life. We didn't have the best relationship and in our case it wasn't him it was me...he adored me and loved me very much and wanted to have a relationship with me but for me for some reason because we weren't that close I didnt have that drive to want to have a relationship with him because the only dad I ever knew is the man my mom is married to and has been married to forever, my stepdad, Tom, but to me he is my dad. So I didn't really know how to handle the whole thing. Believe me, now looking back I would have handled it so much better and so differently. Then in March, we had to put my dog, Jordan, to sleep. She was old and miserable so it was a good thing. Also around March or so I ended a 5 year relationship but it just never seemed to really end and now it's definitely over and done with and a lot of stress was lifted from me. Then around July or so, John and I actually got together. I met him August 2006 and we actually hit it off really well, but at the time things didn't last between us for different reasons, but then in July 2008, we got back together and been together since and things are good between us. He's a very loving and affectionate person and he loves Cristian and I very much and I love him very much.

So we'll see what 2009 holds in store for us!!!